Wednesday, June 29, 2011

20 Weeks

I am 20 weeks along today, and growing bigger by the week. This was confirmed at my OB appointment today, where they noted a four pound gain over the past month. If you break that down, I've gained a pound a week. I have to say that it's really strange to go from desperately trying to push the numbers down on the scale to purposefully pushing them up. Jeff is constantly reminding me that it's okay to eat a little more, and I am constantly reminding him that really, I should only be eating a LITTLE more, not an entire pizza more. I'm grateful that I have yoga and spinning so that even as the scale steadily marches upwards, I still feel fit and healthy.

Interestingly, now that I'm free from the constant struggle to stay THIN THINNER THINNEST I actually feel much more positive about my body. Focusing on healthy foods (with a layer of decadent junk on top) and taking care of myself turns out to be much more agreeable than picking myself and my choices apart, calorie by calorie. I hope this lesson stays with me after the pregnancy, as it provides a much welcome level of freedom in my thoughts and in my spirit.

Here's a picture of me that Jeff took last night. It's fascinating to watch the changes that are taking place, even though I swear I feel a lot bigger than I look in this particular picture.

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